Monday, 20 March 2017

Happy Spring Equinox

As much as I adore the silliness of Winter, by the time we reach the end of February I am really ready to welcome the Spring. 
It's so wonderful to have such a poignant reminder of the life force that lies within, I look at the beauty of new life around me, slowly emerging from its dormant state and feel my energies reemerging from their dormant state too.

Tune in to the reawakening of life around you and feel uplifted.


have recently been enjoying the writings and teachings of John O' Donohue, the Irish philosopher and poet. 
Let me share a few words from his book Eternal Echoes-

Our Longing for nature.

'Celtic spirituality reminds us that we do not live simply in our thoughts, feelings or relationships. We belong on the earth.

The rhythm of the earth and it's seasons sings within our hearts.
Perhaps nature even senses the longing that is within us, the restlessness that never lets us settle. She takes us in to the tranquillity of her stillness if we visit her. We slip in to her quiet contemplation and inhabit for a while the depth of her ancient belonging. Somehow we seem to become one with the rhythm of the universe, our longing is purified and we gain strength to come back to life refreshed, and refine our ways of being in the world.

Nature calls us to tranquillity and rhythm. When your heart is confused or heavy, a day outside in natures quiet eternity restores your lost tranquillity.'

This is how I would explain my relationship with nature, It is my oldest companion, my most faithful friend and is always sure to nourish and cure me like nothing or no one else can. Within nature I am able to quiet my busy mind and soothe my aching heart. It is often quite rare that I feel I fit in to society but when I am in nature I know I belong. Many find God within churches and temples, it is within the wild places that I am most able to access divinity.

Take the time to enjoy natures beauty in the Spring, Green shoots, newly opened flowers, blossom adorning the branches of the tress, birdsong, butterflies and sunshine to warm your face, It's a wonderful time to be alive.


The Seasons, Nature, Niah and I . . . .

Last Summer we were lucky enough to buy the little house we've rented for the last three years, since then we have slowly been moving through each room with fresh coats of white paint.
After co-sleeping with us for two years, Niah was ready for her own bed, I still wanted her in the same room as us and so I made this area for her in the alcove over by the window, she was so very excited when I first revealed it too her and she has slept most contentedly in her little nook for the last six months.

She has a little french porcelain vase in one of her house shaped shelves which depending on the season has various stems placed inside, during the winter she had a sprig of Holly, a stem of rosemary or a little evergreen branch, and at the moment she has a Daffodil for the Spring. It's a very simple and beautiful way of teaching her about nature within the seasons.



I also change to crystal there too depending on the season and how I think Niah is feeling at the time, at the moment she has Citrine a joyful stone with a bright and cheerful energy, perfect for the Spring.



Niah has been drawing so Beautifully this last month, she still creates very abstract paintings which I love, but also alongside them she has now started drawing people, little, creatures and animals, they have filed my heart with so much joy!
For about a week she drew Sunshine's with beautiful faces pretty much every day, this one is going in a frame.




We've got little posies of Daffodils all around our home at the moment, they're such a happy flower.

We don't watch television in our house, and so Niah has never watched children channels with all of the current popular TV shows. We have a small screen that we use to watch films and I brought for Niah the old tales of Beatrix Potter, like the books they are very simple and gentle and very much based around nature which is so nice.
We have a large wall in the kitchen where we display all of Niah's creations, just this week I have started to take down her winter crafts and have begun replacing them with Spring crafts, just this weekend we made a fluffy baby chick with yellow feathers and a garland of baby rabbits with little cotton wool tails.

We also really enjoy going to the library every couple of weeks, we have borrowed lots of Spring themed books, they are in her little book stand at the end of her bed and we read them at bed time.

I'm really looking forward to the warmer weather so that we can spend lots more time outdoors, last week on a walk in the village we spotted our first bumble bee of the new season and have seen a fair few butterflies on the sunnier days floating through our garden too.

Happy Spring Equinox,
Wishing you lots of Love and Joy this Spring time x

Friday, 17 March 2017

Gingerbread

The clouds hang low in the sky and there is a nip in the air. The sun has not managed to break through today but I have little posies of daffodils around the house bringing cheer and joy.

Tonight's dinner is bubbling away in the slow cooker, Niah is having a nap, and the house is quiet. This sweet babe in my belly has got the hiccups, I can feel a rhythmic little pounding, whist the warming scent of baked ginger fills the room and the warmth of the tea in my cup soothes my palms.

I first began making gingerbread biscuits around ten years ago when my husband and I had first met, he told me they were his favourite and I am still making them for him today.

He has recently come to the decision that his perfect weekend is a combination of watching England play rugby, with a cold pint and a box full of home baked gingerbread. 
And so when he returns home this afternoon he will be happy to find a fresh batch ready for tomorrows game.


I really enjoy being a stay at home mama, house wife and home maker, It makes me really happy to stand in the kitchen and bake treats for my Love to welcome him home after a hard week at work, It's quite old fashioned and probably every feminists worst nightmare, but it's true, I even wear a piny!

Really It's just another aspect of the slow and quiet living I enjoy.




Happy weekend, Love and Joy.

Monday, 13 March 2017

This Little One And I

I've just entered the third trimester at twenty eight weeks pregnant.

I am feeling well today after a really difficult day yesterday, I've washed my hair put a little makeup on and so wanted to capture this moment while I could. 

It has been such a challenging pregnancy that there have been no opportunities for photographs, I need to really make the effort to capture a few shots through these last few months so that this little babe and I have something to look back on in the future.  



And so here I am big and blooming, wearing an oversized loose fitting dress that might not necessarily be the most flattering but is so very comfortable, which for me at the moment means everything.


This little one moves so much and It's such a wonderful awe inspiring feeling!

Niah kisses and cuddles the bump every day without fail, she talks about the baby all the time, says good morning and good night and sings to the baby regularly, she's been so sweet and is so excited, she's going to make such a wonderful big sister.

We are starting to make a few preparations, Alex brought home some teeny tiny newborn nappies from the super market this weekend, and I will soon start washing the babies clothes and get those put away, and begin picking up some things for my hospital bag. 

It's so special to think of this new little soul that has chosen to join our family, motherhood is such a beautiful blessing, thank you for this day of wellness where I am able to reconnect with the positivity and joyful magic.






Tuesday, 7 March 2017

All Is Good. All Is Well.

Slow, quiet and contemplative living.

I sit in the morning and repair some of Alex's work trousers with a needle and thread, whist Niah sits beside me watching old episodes of Beatrix Potter. 

The rest of our morning is made up of building towers with wooden blocks, puzzles, teddy bear tea parties and reading through a stack of books whilst my littlest babe dances in my belly.


At lunch Niah and I sit together to eat, she now joins me at the table on her booster seat, gone is the high chair and she looks so very grown up.
 We listen to classical music on the radio. 
Her plate with its many sections is filled with a multitude of nourishing foods, although today the top right corner is the most exciting, Last night I made healthy cookies and one sits there waiting to be held in her eager little hands, I have to explain at least a dozen times that we eat our cookie last, when she finally tries it she tells me how yummy it is and I am filled with joy.


I tuck her up in bed for a nap, wash the pots and pour myself a cup of tea, I'm tired but today it feels manageable. 
My mind is foggy but the thoughts that I can access, maybe they are the only ones I need. 
The house is cool, but not so cold that I need to turn the heating on, I pull a blanket over me to rest. 
Winter feels as though it has passed although it is not quite yet Spring, I feel as though I'm floating in a quiet haze of that space in-between physically, mentally, and emotionally, I go with it.

Accept and Surrender.

'All is Good. All is Well' 
~ My mantra for today repeats in my head as I close my eyes.




I give thanks that today I feel 'Ok' For some Okay Is not enough, but for me just recently, Okay is really good.


Sunday, 19 February 2017

A new little life

Today for the first time, In the garden with Niah I could smell the Spring, a distant friend on the horizon, drawing that bit closer, It felt good.

Feeling good and well is only to be found in rare moments just lately, they are few and far between.

I am pregnant, a great blessing for which I am so grateful - truly. 

This new little life, our second baby is growing within me, due in the early Summer, we will be a Mama and Papa of two and Niah will have a little sibling. It's everything we hoped for, and we know we are very lucky. 

But the reality of this second pregnancy is tough, I am finding it so hard. I have felt so unwell and every day I feel like I am battling to make it through, It might sound dramatic but it is the simple, raw and honest truth of where I find my self at present.

I am taking it day by day and moment by moment. 
I rest in the easier moments that fall in-between the difficult ones, I cry when I need to. I look after myself in the ways that I can, when I can. 
Every day no matter how tough I stroke my growing belly and talk to this new little baby of mine, I send the baby love and thanks and envision myself surrounded by light. 

Most of all I aim to enjoy every moment with Niah while it is still just us, such a growing girl but still my baby, my first born, 
such a beautiful little soul is she.

All too soon everything will change, I know It will come as a shock to her, to share me with another, her world will change overnight and she will have a lot to process. As much as I can't wait to experience the dynamic of being a Mama of two and watch Niah with her new little brother or sister and observing how their relationship will form, I am aware that It is the closing of a chapter that has been so magical, the experience of my first child.  


Here is a photo of our new little one, taken at our twenty week scan. 

This baby is a mover and a groover! It wriggles and wriggles and kicks and wriggles, much more than Niah ever did.

We have a box of newborn clothes saved from when we had Niah, but I have started to collect a few new things, little vests and rompers and teeny tiny socks, they are so wonderful just to hold and to imagine this baby, how it might look and how it will feel to have such a precious new little life in my arms once again. 

It is nice to write after so long, I write my blog as an act of creative therapy for myself, and as a journal to look back on. There are a few lovely beings who enjoy visiting this space too, which is so nice, may I ask you a favour? I ask that you hold me in your thoughts even if only for a moment and send me strength and positive uplifting energy, I would really benefit from that right now, 
Thank you, I hope to be back soon

Wishing you a wonderful week ahead x


Friday, 11 November 2016

A little note to say . . . . .

I am absent from this space at present due to a phase of challenging health. 

I hope very much to be back soon x


Thursday, 22 September 2016

Falling in to Autumn

"Autumn, The year's last, Loveliest smile"
                             -William Cullen Bryant




 Happy Autumn Equiniox.

Autumn is my favourite season. I love the combination of bright sun with cooler temperatures. The clarity of the light at this time of the year is so beautiful, every thing so vivid and crisp. Walks in nature at this time of the year are something special and woodlands are particularly magical in the Autumn.

It's harvest time, a chance to give thanks and tune in to a deep sense of gratitude for all that summer has provided us. Summer has been a time of growth, in nature but also within our selves, what have we learnt? how have we evolved? now its time to harvest those teachings and reap what we have sown, If there are areas for improvement now is the time to think about how we might like to change our thought processes or actions going forward, a brand new cycle is about to start, leave anything that no longer serves you in the past and take in to this new beginning only what is true for you now. 

"Life starts all over again when it gets crisp in the Fall."
                                                     -F. Scott Fitzgerald 

It is Important to endeavour, like our elders, to stay in-tune with the cycles of nature. As everything begins to slow and fade we will feel an inclination to turn inwards, the year starts its winding down process from now onwards, feel that draw to begin to mellow in a calm and contemplative stillness.

You will notice the days beginning to shorten, make the most of every moment of daylight, give thanks for the radiance that glimmers through the tress with their leaves a show of spectacular tones. Perhaps bring home a few branches of pretty leaves and display them in your home like you would flowers, there is a quote by Albert Camus that says,

 'Autumn is a second Spring where every leaf is a flower'

 I like to decorate my mantle with a selection of seed-heads and flickering candles. 

Time stretches further in to the night, with darkness creeping in more and more, snuggle down and get cosy. Warm tea, blankets, comfy socks and a good book- that is my kind of heaven right there.





Alex and I were married in the Autumn, we had a woodland ceremony, it was so Beautiful and Niah was born in the Autumn too, so this season really does hold my heart.

Wishing for you all the Joy that this season has to offer x

Wednesday, 21 September 2016

Our Summer in pictures . . . .

Here I sit on the eve of Autumn Equinox, hot tea in my cup and Niah sleeping upstairs, there is a slight chill in the air and I have found my self more and more reaching for my favourite woolen socks.

Autumn I am ready for your golden light.

But before the seed heads laced with spiders webs, the fallen leaves that rustle underfoot and the cozying down beneath hoards of blankets, 

my favourite summer moments I will remember once more . . . . 




Glastonbury in Somerset, the home town of my soul.

Walking barefoot to the top of the Tor,

And tying ribbons on the prayer trees with many blessings of love.


Niah in this vintage swimsuit, passed on from a dear friend who has kept it since her own girls were young.






I love it when I'm pottering about the house doing my chores and I stumble across little fragments of her world, small remnants of play left behind.


Village living is so wonderful, We have a neighbour a few doors along with an allotment at the bottom of his garden, this summer I have opened our front door to find all sorts of goodies left on our doorstep, fresh homegrown strawberries, raspberries, plums, beans, cucumber and on one occasion beautiful Hydrangea. 


 Niah has become such a beautiful artist, I now have a scrapbook filled with her stunning abstract creations, many many moments this summer have been spent covered in paint and glitter.





There have been countless walks through meadows of long grass and wild flowers.




Spending time in the garden with Niah has made this summer my favourite of all my summers. Planting flowers together, and watching her water them with her little watering can, watching her splash in the paddling pool, or making friends with ladybirds and butterflies has quite literally felt like a dream. 








I have pressed dozens of daisies and buttercups within the pages of my favourite books to remember this blessed time. 


Coastal adventures, Sandy bottoms and salty Kisses.






If there is one thing that I hope will never fade in my memory it is the way her little hand feels in mine, It's the most wonderful feeling in the world. 


Tuesday, 20 September 2016

Last of the summer raspberries

A simple recipe for a delicious treat, gluten, dairy and refined sugar free.

Coconut and raspberry sponge cake

Decorated with the pretty white petals from our geranium flowers in the garden.



- For the sponge

225g Olive oil butter / or any dairy free spread
225g wholemeal spelt flour
2 heaped tsp baking powder
3 large eggs
1tsp vanilla extract
225g maple syrup / honey

- For the Filling

1 tin / carton coconut cream
1-2 tbs maple syrup / honey
3/4 punnet of raspberries 
A sprinkle of desiccated coconut

- To Decorate

I decorated the top with final 1/4 raspberries, cut and scattered, a sprinkle of desiccated coconut and flowers.





- Method

- Preheat the oven to 180c/160c fan/ gas 4. Grease two round sandwich tins.
- Put the coconut cream in the fridge to chill.
- Cream the butter extra thoroughly until its really soft and fluffy, an electric whisk or standing mixer is best. In a separate bowl mix the spelt flour and baking powder and stir until well combined.
- Add an egg to the creamed butter, then a couple of tablespoons of the flour, fold this in and continue adding eggs and the remaining flour alternately until all the eggs have been added. fold in the last of the flour with vanilla extract and maple syrup, mix gently until all ingredients are combined.
- Divide the mixture between the two tins and bake in the oven for about 20 minutes, until the sponges are springy to the touch, light brown and shrinking away from the edge of the tins, leave them to cool for 5-10 minutes then turn them out on to a cooling rack. Allow the cakes to cool completely before filling and dressing.
- Remove the coconut cream from the fridge and empty in to a mixing bowl, add the maple syrup and whisk until forming gentle peaks, a consistency that is easy to spread, spoon on to the top of one of the cakes leaving enough for the top.
- Cut around 3/4 of the raspberries in half and lay on top of the cream with a sprinkle of desiccated coconut. place the other sponge on top. Decorate the top with the remaining cream and the remaining raspberries cut in to quarters, a sprinkle of desiccated coconut and flowers of your choice, (My flowers were just for show and were removed before eating.)





-A few notes,

-This recipe was inspired by a Davina Mccall recipe, I enjoy altering recipes to make them more suitable for my own dietary preferences.
-Coconut cream is the solid part of coconut milk, if you struggle to find coconut cream in your super market, buy coconut milk in a tin (the sort you might use for a curry) and scrape out the solid content leaving behind the water.


Friday, 16 September 2016

Notes Of Niah

As Summer draws to it's very end and we edge towards Autumn equinox, the memories of this Summer are held so dear.

The first Summer you walked along the beach, your toes in the sand, pebbles found and held like treasure within your hands.



 The softest of curls that fall below the lace trim of your sun hat.

Your pretty long lashes fluttering in the gentle sea breeze as you look far out to the ocean blue.

 Your colourful little Swimsuit, your Amber beads.

This summer you made your first sand castle, it was so sweet to watch you and Papa together.


I write these words to remember, 
to remember the details in these moments and how they feel.

The passage of time is both a blessing and a curse, it is bitter sweet. 
These days with you are my favourite of all my days, I bathe in the beauty of your presence, I am in awe as I watch you grow, I delight in every mile stone amazed by every new thing you learn and yet simultaniously I mourn the fact that I will never be able to hold you as a new born again, not even for a moment.
I know that one day my memories will be my closest companions the fondest of all my thoughts and my most treasured possession.   

One day far from now I will smile as I look back and remember sitting on the sand in the warm summer sun watching the two loves of my life paddling in the shallow waters, your little body held in Papa's strong arms and how I felt all consumed by my Love for you both, so very happy and so blessed.